squeeze the lemons till they run dry.

At the end of a Bad Day, and I am feeling really sad. really lonely. I think about everything thats good. though it is not much. but honestly, you have to make life what you can. and from this moment, that is just what i am going to do. i fuck up. i know i do. all i can try to do is embrace everything that i find discomforting. i have been more active. i would like to do a triatalon. perhaps in the summer time i will buy a new bike. i have a lot of things going for me, i met a lot of amazing people this year. including jacob hoggard. who i might be delighted to say went rather well. i think it was because of him i even started to just write it down. it feels like taking an intire load right off my chest. i feel so content right now. i live in truly one of the most beautiful places on earth. sometimes at school. the time i dread most out of the day. i hide. behind a wall or under the stairs. i just like to keep to myself, lately reading world war Z. i don't like to face everybody. i can't bring myself to it. i have been going more often lately. i like to be awake before the sun comes up. then walk down to the waterfront and watch it rise from behind the mountains. there are only a few things that take my breathe away, and this is definatly one of them.